Someone whom I admire recently asked me that question. Ironically, what “good happened” in that moment was that I was resisting the urge to punch him in the face.
I may have overreacted.
Anyway, I have been having a rough day, week, month, year….And today I just wanted to give up. I went to the to woods to take pictures for my photography class and it was too dark. The tripod broke. The camera settings were wrong and I have selective dyslexia that definitely kicks in when it comes to reading technical stuff. ( that’s a technical term BTW…) So I sat down in the middle of the Little Woods (the place where this blog started almost a year ago now) and sobbed like a baby. I don’t know who I am or what I’m doing. No one needs me to cook or wash their clothes or make sure they get to school, and right now its a good thing because I can hardly take care of myself. I recently locked my keys in the car while it was running for the SECOND time in a month. When I called AAA they asked me if there were any small children or animals in the car.
No, I replied. I am definitely not on anyones list for the responsible care of of small helpless creatures these days. I am after all the genius who just locked her keys in her running automobile, AGAIN.
I just feel like the biggest loser in the world today.
But I am not going to give up. I always land on my feet and I will again. What’s in question is whether I will pirouette or pratfall when I do.
Its ok. I do an amazing pratfall. I don’t even need a banana peel.
So here’s what GOOD happened today.
I got a B on my math test.
I finished my homework.
I did not maim or set fire to any small children or animals.
I did not piss off my roommate.
I did not kill my other roommate.
My hair did not fall out.
I did not lose my sense of humor (even while sobbing in the woods I was acutely aware of how ridiculous I looked)
I still managed to find time to defile myself in the steam room.
I feel like shit but I LOOK Mahvelous….
I still believe in faeries.
I am still in love with Neil Gaiman.
And my kid is still the best person I know.
Now I have to find something to call and bitch at him about….